Thursday, April 7, 2011

D, E for Dear Ellina

* Killing two birds with one stone, here we go ;)

Dear Ellina,

It has been some time since we last spoke. Although it's just a few weeks, it feels like it's been years and years.

I'm not sure how we got here, but I'm sorry that we have. I remember times when things were simpler, happier. I hate to admit it, but I think we've been taking things for granted for way too long.

I guess I'm trying to sound really intelligent and all that, but maybe what I'm saying is that I'm sorry. Sorry that I didn't stop you from leaving and sorry that now I feel like a complete idiot because I desperately need you here but was just too downright proud to admit it.

I know I used to hate it when you'd ramble on and on about the things you had experienced in a day. I recall how I would cringe or recoil from you whenever you reached out to offer me a hug.

I wish I could have you offer me those things now.

When I finally go this time, I will go empty handed. I cannot take anything with me, even if I want to. I had always known this would be a solo trip, yet I never imagined it would feel this hollow. 

Would it be too much to ask for you to come meet me? Just one more time?

I promise I will be nice and that I won't dwell on old things.

Please forgive me and say you'll be there at the bus stop before 3pm.

Thanks, goodbye and hope to see you then.


* All details described above are purely fictional, and any perceived representation to any persons alive or dead is entirely coincidental.